Slaying The Daily Giants {DWITW 365}
Not many days go by when I don’t second guess or question what God could possibly do with little ole’ me in His amazing kingdom filled with people much more qualified than I. In these moments of self-doubt, I’ve recalled stories of people like Noah, Moses, David, or even of Naomi and Ruth.
In questioning God of my own worthiness, He gently, yet boldly, reminds me of many places He has already used me for His perfect purposes. Note, not my perfect qualifications, but His perfect purposes. Take, for example, my job. I get cranky. I have moments where I would just as well throw my keyboard out the window rather than type another figure into a spreadsheet (I have been told I even have a “back away slowly from my desk” look). While not highly proud of this, the reality is, in the heat of normal workday stress, sometimes, my “Jesus Freak” positive attitude gets left at the copier.
God doesn’t need the strongest people to defeat the Giants. He only needs the willing.
Despite this, people know I am a Jesus-loving, God-fearing girl. Because I tend to live life wild and free, the raw vulnerability I typically display has brought people to me for prayer needs, to talk, and has even opened the door for three families to regularly attend church with me. I have been told by people my willingness to share, as raw and unrefined as it may be at times, is refreshing, tending to draw people in. Which is funny because I often feel as if I am walking around like Pig Pen from the Peanuts - swirled, not with dirt, but chaos.
I’ve discovered along the way God doesn’t need the strongest people to defeat the Giants. He only needs the willing. And I am certainly willing! The funny thing is, when I feel frustrated or angry, wanting to look for another job (the way the Israelites wanted to flee Goliath), inevitably, someone at the office says “I want to go to church with you!” Say what!? I proceed to pull my ‘Jesus Freak’ back out of the paper jam and get to share my love of God, but more importantly about HIS love for us. Back at my desk, I look to the heavens, laughing at God’s way of saying: “Nope! Sit still girlie, I’m not done with you here!”
I think David can relate. In 1 Samuel 17:45, David says to Goliath “you come against me with sword, spear and javelin but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied!” The Message version is a little more exciting, but I’ll spare you most of the details. In this version David phrases it: “The God of Israel‘s troops, whom you curse and mock!” And in verse 46 this version goes on to say “this very day God is handing you over to me…”
In our day to day, how often do we believe we are showing up with a few stones to throw when the enemy is armed with nuclear weapons? But it doesn’t matter. We are not powerful because of our own defenses or weaponry. We are powerful because of the Leader of our army! What matters in the moments of trial is our willingness to call on and obey God - He will hand over our enemy. It doesn’t matter if we are armed with a javelin, a bazooka, or a cold chicken nugget from our kids’ lunch. He. Will. Hand. Over. Our. Enemy! It is as simple as that.
we are not powerful because of our own defenses or weaponry.
we are powerful because of the leader of our army!
As I read the story of David and Goliath, I was reminded of Saul wanting to protect David. He insisted on placing his armor on him. David tried to maneuver around a little with this armor. But it was too big for him. He struggled to move easily or properly. He shed the armor, saying instead, that he would enter this fight with God.
This passage became glaringly evident to me tonight as I visited a dear friend in the hospital. We were praying before she was transported to another hospital and in prayer, I was reminded of David walking around awkwardly in this armor unfit for him - an armor the world believed he needed to wear. David was adamant though that God was his protector. The same way my precious friend is adamant God is her healer! The same way she believes the doctor reports she receives have little to do with her defeating cancer! To be perfectly honest, I can’t say I would have shed the armor. I think I would’ve figured out a way to work with it. I don’t know if I’m brave enough to go against the “giants” with nothing but a couple of rocks. I wish I could say I were, but I’m not positive. Luckily, I don’t have to face a literal giant. But I do have to face struggles that seem gigantic. When they come calling, what am I armed with? Am I walking around awkwardly in that unfit armor? Or am I grabbing a couple of stones and saying ‘God‘s got this’?
As I write this, I question my own logic. Why do we make things so difficult for ourselves? We just need to shed that armor, pick up a couple of rocks & slay the giant! What causes us to question the simplicity of that course of action? Is it pride? Lack of trust? For me, I guess, it depends on the circumstances but it may be a combination of both.
I guess what this story means to me is this: When my day is trying to get the best of me, when I’m trying to slay a giant, when I’m fighting to keep my head above water, when I need to not use my back away from my desk look, I should come to realize that it’s really not about me. It’s about giving that moment back to God. It’s about letting my Almighty protector take over that, and every, situation. God wants to be part of every single detail of my day. He wants to be part of which rock I pick up to the slay the giant. He wants to be part of my day not going well. He wants us to talk to him about our fears, hopes, desires, dreams, even frustrations. Because God is the God of the details - big or small. And that ladies, is what I believe we need to know about being a David in a world full of Goliaths.
Sonya Gentry wants to live in a world where being kind and loving means that when we encounter a need or brokenness, we say yes first and think about it second. This would be a world where walking with Jesus means trying to act like Jesus through loving, relevant acts of service; where Christians put their hands and feet in the dirty situations of the world in order to show people God’s love and grace; where we understand that comfort zones are meant to be broken because people need us to show up and be be the best portrayal of God’s love we can be. When she's not working, you can find her being silly with friends and family, playing games with her nephews, volunteering for various organizations and events with her church, or relaxing with a movie.
Her favorite Scripture is John 15:16-17: “You have not chosen Me, but I have chosen you and I have appointed and placed and purposefully planted you, so that you would go and bear fruit and keep on bearing, and that your fruit will remain and be lasting, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name [as My representative] He may give to you. This [is what] I command you: that you love and unselfishly seek the best for one another” (AMP).